I wanna move schools.

Not getting bullied or anything gay like that, but evryones changed.
Megan is so different to who I thought she was.
I became friends with her because I admired how she didnt car about being popular and wasnt afraid to say what she thought. She didnt bumlick any of the popular people when I first met her, and was one of the msot friendly girls i nthe whole year when I joined.
But as I got to know her mroe and mroe..shes the complete opposite.
Now, she sucks up to all of the popular people like theres no tomorrow. No offence shes turned into a complete arselicker. Now instead of being herself, she jsut agrees with everyone.
She lsits a MILLION people as her bestfriend, when I know they're CLEARLY not. She only lists them to show everyone how 'popular' she is. Like, she jsut started talking to this girl in our year called Georgia for one nighyt on msn, and Megan says they're now bestfriends.
No off, bullshit.
She still says we're bestfriends, but it doesnt seem liek it at all. It feels like shes going off to get as many popualr peopel as her friends as possible, and im jsut her incase that all gos wrong. When im bestfriends with someone, I expect it to feel like it. I dunno, like its exclusive to jsut us. I only lsit people as my 'bestfriends' if they really are.
I wasnt in school yesterday cos I was sick. And already Megan went off with this girl called Chloe. Shes gone to the funfair with her today.
It feels liek im easily replaced. If I wasnt here, would Megan give a crap? What would she do if I jsut moved schools anyway? She wouldnt give a shit. She'd just go off withb all the popular people.
And now, I dont know if its me being jealous, or it genuinely is unfair, but now all these thoughts are coming into my head like,
Megan is so much mroe prettier than I am, shes popular than I am, has a perfect family life, everyone lvoes her, AND she manages to get higher levels/grades than me.
How the hell am I suppsoeds to be 'bestfriends' with someone who makes me feel small and useless?
Thats it. Thats exactly how I feel right now.
Im emo rambling.

Mrr.
I should move to your school, Cindy LOL.

Candis Post!

Cindy, I think if you like him back you should totally go out with him. If you do go out with him, it will be WELL scary at first but after a while you'll get used to it!
UGH
SCHOOL NEWS
Shelby is known for being a *ahem* maneater. She goes out with boys for liek a week, dumps them, and gos out with anothr.
But recently, she had a boyfriend who was a year older than her, called Frank. Shelby was totally head over heels in love with him... and then he dumped her.
She was totally devasted and went emo for a week.
I went over to Shelbys for a sleepover, and we textd him asking why he dumped her.
And he said
"Theres someone else.."
BOOOM
That totally got me because Frank didnt seem like the kind of person who would dump someone for someon else!
That was like, at christmas.
And shelby is still depressed about him.
I swear, all she talks about is him him him.
Its well annoying.
Also, Megan is sooo desperate for a boyfriend.
They both really annoy me, why are they so obsessed about boyfriends and crap?
Whatevr.
Also, I dont know why, but Megan seems different. We're not as close anymore.
But i dont really care anymore either so x)


ANNOYED...
I was bored, so I thought
"Hey, im gonna go set up my mega old Xbox 8D"
So i got it all set up, swithced it on, put in a game.
And theen i realised i needed a controlelr (xD)
AND I LOST THE DAMN CONTROLLER.
So I thought
"Fine, ill go on Band hero on the wii."
AND THE DRUMS WERNT WORKING.
xD
2010 is being a very crappy year for me.
Ah well. x)

Candis post.

Thanks, Kih P:
But im getting a PS3 hopefully instead for my bday :)
While we're on the subject of gaming..

I was on YouTube earlier and watched a trailer of some game, and I swear, there was a dude in the gam with the worst fake irish accent I have ever heard.
So I comment going all
"Lol, is it me or is that the worst fake irish accent ever?"
And some idiot comes along, going all
"WELL I KNO IRISH PEEPS N DAY SAY DAT DA ACCENT IZ REL!"
There was a bit of an argument, and I was saying how cool, thats their opinion and I respec that, just I think its a really bad accent. I said that I was half irish, so it wasnt as if I didnt know what a real acceent sounded like.
Then he said somthing along the lines of "So who should I peopl? 100% irish people or you, half irish a man i nthe uk?"
I was thinking how stupid this guy is, cause to be honest when I posted that comment I didnt want a gay little argument on som fictional character in a video game. I said do you really want to start a stupid littlee arguemnt over th internet?
Whatever, then I said something about me bing a girl.
And you know what he said?
Exact words: (though i took out some sentences)
"You don't live in Ireland, you're not 100% irish, so go back to dressing up your dolls under your Jonas Brothers poster girl...sigh"
..
Now. Listen.
Im not a feminist or anything.
But dude, when you start bringing sexism into my gaming world, thats were you step the mark.
This is th 3rd time someone has commented on me, a girl, liking games. (including that whole sisteer thing about MW)
I really want to know, if anyone else whos a guy reading this (probably no one reads this anyway), what the fuck is wrong with me playing games?
No, seeriously, I think im missing out on somthing here. Is there a law that stops me from playing video games because im a girl?
I hate when girls go on about sexist people, but that guys comment really pissed me off.
I jsut posted back saying something like
"Something tells me you havnt ahd many girlfriends :) I like how you had to bring my gender into this for insults because you felt threatened by my own opinion. Its quit pathetic how you got all defensive because I made a joking comment of my own opinon. Hope you hav a nice day :)"
Asshole.

......................................
SCHOOL NEWS!
Shelby and Megan are friends again.
Shelby is round Megans to sleepover tonight. You know what bugs me? I was supposed to sleep over megans on Friday, but she said I coudlnt because her dad said that megan couldnt hav any friends round or go to anyones house.
I like it being me, shelby and megan, its just. I dunno. I cant exactly put into words how I feel.
I feel lik they're leaving me out. But part of me knows that they're not at all.
For music, we had to get into partners. Shelby and Megan went together.
I was like "Yeah but megaan, who am I gonna be with?"
And she goes "Dunno"
So i go "What, so im going to be a larry all by myself?"
And she actually went "Lol, yeah."
So i actually had to be by myself.
And thn for PE, we had to get into partners, amnd they wnt togthr again!
Its really not fair.
I feel ike slowly but surely, Shlby and Megan are gttting closer and Im jsut drifting further apart from them.
I know i have to fight myslf back into the friendship, but I just cant be bothered anymore. It feels like Megan has changed.
It used to be just me and Megan, we were like twins because we were so close and we looked like each other.
I feel like im not involved in the friendship.
I want to tell them how I feel, but I just dont know hwot to. I dont know how to put it into works. You dont know how difficult it has been just to write this down.

I'd really prefer if it was just me and Megan. But i know that wont happened ever again.


I have so much stress going on right now.
2010 is lookign like the worst year ever.

Candys ANNOYED post.

WTF, i wrote out a huge long psot and it jsut deleted everything.
Anyway.
I told my sister and mum that I wanted to get Modern Warfare.
Their reaction?
"But you're a girl. Girls dont play games like that." both with a disgusted and horrified look o ntheir faces.
That pissed me off.
Just because im a girl im not supposed to play the same games as guys?
What games am I 'allowed' to paly? Barbies and Friends? I call bull.
Their reaction really annoyed and offended me, so i went "Well, im also pretty sure girls dont play games like GTA Vice City either."
Vice city is a game me and my sister used to play ALL THE TIME when we were younger. You know whatshe said?
"Well, Vice city is different"
I call bullcrap again: Modern warfare isd a 15, and Vice City is an 18.
Of course its different, she only approves of vice city because she likes it herself.
Great, now when i do get MW i'll be too embarrassed to actually play it.
Because I'll opnly be able to play it when my mum and sister arnt around.
Pshh.
'Girls dpnt paly games like that' what crap that is.
Great, now theres a small voice in my head going
"Well maybe I shouldnt get the game afterall. All my friends will think im weird. Im a girl, i shouldnt be playing games like that anyway."
Now im really pissed.

Cnadis scraed post

Holy shat
Im going out with someone
Seriously.
Ive never had a boyfriend bwfore
School tomorrow is going to be so embarrasing
CINDY. FURCADIA. OR MSN. NOW!!!!!

Candi's annoyed post

Im annoyed.
Me, shelby and megan were going to go shopping on friday and then sleepover Megans. I was getting excited because we were planning to try and stay up all night and biuy loads of energy drinks to keep us going.
We decided this only today.
Then, later at lunch, Courtney and Jessica (these twogirls we sometimes hang out with) kind of invited themselves to come along too. To be honest, I jsut wanted it to be just us 3 (shelby me and megan) because we're better as jsut a three because we have our own little jokes and stuff. I dunno, i just dont get along with Courtney and Jessica much.
But they said they would jsut come with us to TGI Fridays and then they'd go home, and I thought "Oh, thats ok."
I know I sound mean, its not that I dont like them, its just its really awkward for me when Im around them because Im not as close to them.
Then, jsut now Megan goes "OH BTW COURTNEY AND JESSICA MIGHT BE SLEEPING VOER1"
I felt like my whole friday was just ruined. I tried convincing her its better if its jsut us three, but I have a feeling they'll be sleeping over anyway. She doesnt really udnerstand how I feel.
Its so annoying, I know im not going to enjoy friday at all. I was so looking forward to it.
Im worried megans gone and told Courtney and jessica that I dont want them to sleepover. #
Ugh
Megan says she'll make sure I dont get left out but still, I've got that weird feeling that things wont turn out right. But whatever, sometiems my weird feeling is wrong, 89% of the time. I remember when I just met Shelby and Megan I was going to have a sleepover, and I got that weird feeling that things werent going to be good. But the sleepover was totally awesome and stuff so..
Well, I guess all I can do is hope I have a good time.
Oh and
CINDY GO ON FURCADIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
xD

Candis postt..

Aw, hope you get better Cindy :(
Wow what a week.
I've spent most of the week obessing over Assasins Creed II, and freaking out over my school projects.
I;ve had 5 weeks to do 5 projects, so per usual i've left them til last mintue. They're due in next week and I havent started any x.x
I jsut dont have any motivation to do them. Its weird, when im in school I can do loads of work and never get tired, but as soon as I get home I just cant be bothered x.x
Shelbys going out with a guy older than her. I admit, im pretty jealous. They've kissed and everything.
I know I shouldnt find this funny but somehow I do, Shelby found out her boyfriend has Swine flu...and yeah they've kissed so she thinks she may have it. I wasnt thinking when I blurted out "Someone in my area died of swine flu!"
..
Foot in mouth moment.
Urgh, school tomorrow. I cant be bothered, seriously. I cant wait for the christmas holidays, I wish they came fast. But they cant come too fast cause I've stil lgotta do my projects (,FAMNAEHNGHSLRHLADGHOSBJJHRFGBJFDNDGB FLABBERPOOP)

I also realised, im kind of the idea of a nerd or geek.
I wear glasses
Im good at math and science
I love the internet
I love video games
....
e.e
Meh whatever.,
End of blog update